What's your favorite disguise? [/meta]
posted by letter shredder @ 11:59 a.m. on 1/20/2006
"Great art is about conflict and pain and guilt and longing and love disguised as sex and sex disguised as love..."
-- Lester Bangs, Almost Famous
Monday, September 20, 2004
I sent this letter just recently. And as i reread it,I just realized that while I was telling him things, the more I was telling them to myself.
it would really be too hard to explain, but i
think i owe you one.
think about the set-up, i'm not really sure if it
then, something came up then, and i really
felt bad and realized i have to retreat for a
moment. i have to have "real" friends...
I know i actually need more friends.
i'm also thankful for (sort of) knowing you,
kaya lang i know i have to stop if i can't
measure up to what you really want.
ahmmm... i just realized that we don't have
the same issues going on... and i have this
personal baggage that i can't really leave so
that i could take off from where i stopped. and
i can't sacrifice the friendship you have to
offer just because i'm being "stupid" at this
point of my life.
i just thought that i better end it soon, before
everything else goes wrong...
you can always send me messages here. i
just cut off the texting, coz i have to give up
something else, that unfortunately included
you. pero totoong nawala 'yung phone ko
kaya no one can reach me through that old
believe it or not, i'm happy you found a job.
enjoy it while it lasts, but do take care of your
health. i just hope you find your great love...
as for me, i haven't... but i'm stuck with an
excess baggage... pretty hard to give up...
I think I just committed something I shouldn't have.
A year ago, I was the one in his shoes...