What's your favorite disguise? [/meta]
posted by letter shredder @ 11:59 a.m. on 1/20/2006
"Great art is about conflict and pain and guilt and longing and love disguised as sex and sex disguised as love..."
-- Lester Bangs, Almost Famous
Sunday, August 29, 2004
minsan, isang gabing hindi naman kami lango pero parang ganun na rin, sa isang Philcoa jeep, patungong mcdo.
TITLE: the point is.
Jaycee: do you get my point?
Kate: I do.
J: You do?
K: I do.
J: You do my point?
K: No, not your point!
J: Then, whose point?
K: My point.
J: Ahh… I do have many points. They for a line segment.
J: But sometimes, when I am not sure of a point, they (points) form a ray. Now if two points are unclear, they become a line. (note: mas maganda sana kung may drawing kaso di ko kaya. -kate)
J: When points conspire, they form a plane…
J: And sometimes, they have different points… that's why they have nonagon, octagon, etc. Because they have different sides.
J: But do you know what points are the most intelligent among all points?
J: Those that form the Pentagon…
K: Ahh… because they house the CIA.
J: Yeah! Do you get my point?
K: Yes I get your point.
J: You do?
J: (horrified) No, don't do my point!
K: No, no.. I get your point.
J: (more horrified) Don't get my point! It's mine! Just see the point. (pause) Ahh… but not too much.
M: Because points…
K to M: Points form a plane.
M: That's exactly the point.
J: Huh?!? Exactly the point?
M: Yes, exactly the point.
J: Can we meet Exactly the Point? Is it/she/he the god/goddess of all points?
Monday, August 23, 2004
Sa Aking mga Kababata at mga Isip Bata
Pasintabi - siraan na ng layout ito.
Enter – Fairy Tale Music right here.
Simula ng Katapusan
Noong unang panahon, mayroong isang magandang babaeng nagngangalang Osang na nakilala ang BDDK (batang di dapat kinilala).
Isang gabing "pagkakamali", nalantad ang damdamin nila para sa isa't isa.
O: (habang hindi nagyoyosi) BDDK… nais sana kitang makilala. Nais kong pawiin ang iyong lungkot. Nais kong lagyan ng ngiti ang iyong nagdadalamhating mukha.
BDDK: Ah. Okay.
Ngunit, mapaglaro ang tadhana at si BDDK – nagbago ang kanyang isip. Sa bawat pagkakataong nais siyang makausap ni Osang, siya'y lumalayo, di nagpapakita o sumusulpot sa takdang panahon at lugar.
Kawawang Osang. (insert dramatic effect-echos here)
Napagtanto ni BDDK na hindi niya gusto ang nangyayari. Kaya siya ay nagsulat – pero hindi kay Osang, kundi sa isang bulletin board.
Isinulat niya,"Nalilibugan ako kay Osang. Naiilang ako sa sitwasyon. Kung mahal niyo siya, ilayo niyo siya sa akin."
Take note, sa bulletin board. (ng friendster – uyyy magchecheck sila mamaya.)
Nakarating ang mensaheng ito, hindi lang kay Osang, pati sa mga Sorority sisters niyang sina Alanis, Angelina at Winona.
Sabi ni Alanis, "Tara, hampasin natin ng fire extinguisher."
Sabi naman ni Winona, "Hindi. Ihampas na lang natin sa fire hydrant."
Sabi naman ni Angelina, "Ibaon na lang natin siya sa ilalim ng lupa – mas malalim, mas malayo, mas mainam." (Tapos kumain tayo, nagugutom na ako.)
Bago pa man naituloy ang plano, nagsulat na naman si BDDK, hindi ulit kay Osang, kundi sa isa pang bulletin board – ang Internet. (Oh the horrors!)
And we quote: "Hindi kita nakikita bilang asawa. Gusto lang kitang anu-hin kapag kasama kita. Nilalansing ako ng kapangyarihan. Kailangan kitang layuan. Baka may putok ako. I don't deserve your love. You don't deserve this either. Ayaw kitang saktan."
Muli, nakarating ito sa mga Sorority sisters ni Osang. Nag-usap sila sa phone, at ginawa ang istoryang ito.
Dude – walang sorry-sorry.Honest ka nga, ilugar mo naman. Honest din kami – hindi namin ilulugar. Mwahahaha.
Abangan ang napipintong pagbabaon!…
Disclaimer: amin to lahat. no part of this piece can be reproduced in any form without prior permission from the authors winona and angelina.
This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to any person, living or dead, actual places and events are purely coincidental.
Kung tinamaan ka, mamatay ka na. (moreso, ibaon mo na sarili mo nang kusa. Wag mo na kaming pahirapan. Huwag mo na siyang pahirapan at gambalain pa.)
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Ps – Stop killing Journalists.
PPS – we love you mareng catherine zeta jones.
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Sick and Beautiful
I'm stuck with CFA studes... Great! I'm terribly sick... Ang hirap magkalagnat-sebo.
If not for my friend Badette, I wouldn't have showed up. I have to refresh my pick-up lines... Hahaha! But how would I do that with a running nose.
I'm not really feeling well. If not for the chance to see my high school friends, I would have stayed in bed and take a complete rest.
Pero syempre, I always have the choice to go home.
Ahhhh!!! I hate being sick! I even have a week ahead of me. I'm suppose to go to Baclaran tomorrow for my Socio paper. In the afternoon, I have to watch Insiang. On Thursday, I'll be watching Eternal Sunshine with Isa and Kate after class. After that, I have to rush back to UP and meet Kuya Bryant... On Friday, I must find enough theories for the thesis. I'm suppose to have a movie marathon with Isa, but I have to go to Cleng's house to finish the frameworks of the paper.
Everyone, wish me luck!
Thursday, August 05, 2004
Andito ako sa bahay nina Julie. Sleep over with Mamoo at Kate. As usual, wala naman talagang sleep na mangyayari. Dahil katabi namin si Shiela... Kung sino si Shiela... alamin n'yo na lang...
Goodluck sa akin...
Monday, August 02, 2004
Ayoko nang Pumasok
Gusto kong magtigil lang sa bahay namin sa Cavite at alagaan si Gavin... Kahapon, pinapatulog ko siya nung hapon. At ang sabi ko, matulog na siya dahil 'di siya isasama sa SM kung 'di pa siya matutulog.
Nang gumising, naligo... at ang sabi sa akin, "Punta tayo SM."
Tinanong ko kung bakit. Kasi daw gising na siya. Nasa Cavite City kami no'n at kailangan talaga naming umuwi na sa bahay namin sa Amaya. So umuwi kami.
Nang nasa biyahe na... Umiyak si Gavin, 'di raw iyon 'yung daan papuntang SM!
Namangha tuloy ako... He's just barely three years old.
Ang hirap magsinungaling sa kapatid ko. 'Di na ako umaasang mauuto ko pa siya ulit.
Just came from my Socio 101 class and we were discussing... *drum roll* Zones of Interaction...
I just realized that wrestling is included in the intimate zone (0-18 in). Kaya ang mga vampires, very intimate... may necking pa (at the very least)!
Another interesting topic that we discussed was the "Excurses on Love" by Peter Blau.
In his article, there I found some points interesting:
- Love is based on costs and rewards. (Shit, parang Econ.) Increase in rewards means increase in commitment (this I don't fully understand); increase in sacrifices means increase in commitment.
- The more involved a person is, he or she becomes less powerful (Principle of Least Interest).
- Ang idea natin ng love, kailangan laging equal. That if you give, you should receive. And preferably of the same amount...
Hmmm... this I still have to find out for myself. Nothing beats experience.
For an academic reason, I have to read again and again (over and over) the letter that I wrote to him. It was actually my first blog entry, and was about a year ago.
Can't help but sigh.
A year has passed but I could still remember the person. Still hurts. It was then that I chose to be very selfless. I thought everything was for the right reason. Told myself I'd be ready to all the possibilities.
Proved myself wrong.
Proved how I hate the word "leave."
Realized that I am insensitive to pain. And how much attachment means.
It was also the start of so many things that I decided to consider doing. Set aside some inhibitions. Take risks.
The hardest part was to keep myself from being jaded.
And as I read the letter, a name radiates from the page.
The root of it all--my so called "best friend."