What's your favorite disguise? [/meta]

posted by letter shredder @ 11:59 a.m. on 1/20/2006

"Great art is about conflict and pain and guilt and longing and love disguised as sex and sex disguised as love..."
                                          -- Lester Bangs, Almost Famous

Friday, June 18, 2004

posted by letter shredder at 11:58 AM

I thought wives are always the last to know... Best(?) friends din pala

I don't know if I have any right to get mad after all the efforts you've shown me on my birthday. I even told you then that I was not really expecting that you'd be that way. And even now, I am still surprised. You told me many times I was important--in ways that I thought I was just important and should be in the scene when something not very grateful is happening or when you are confused and you need someone to talk to. You were already like that when we were in high school. I know you can still remember how I questioned our friendship when we were in our senior year.

Way back then, our classrooms were adjacent but we do not talk. And we both know it was because of her. You admitted to me that you deliberately ignored me because she wanted to. And it seems you had no choice. Because you never wanted to choose me over her.

Oo nga pala, ako 'yung best friend, ako 'yung dapat umintindi.


Well, i thought i was over that issue. But I really think I am not. Nung brithday ko, I was really happy because I was not really expecting that you'll be coming over to have lunch with me and to be in the surprise party at the Lagoon. I also know you were suppose to go to another party later that night.

And about this new girl, whom you really like, our common friend, and the ex of another common friend. You told me that you really like her. You asked me to watch a movie, and I will be askin her to join us. Nothin really wrong with her being with us. But I can only conclude that you just asked me so I could ask her. Torpe!

It hurts to think that the last movie we've watched was in 2002. Yeah, BEST FRIEND!

When people were askin me if the rumors were true about you courting her, I was not able to say anything. You even went to her boarding house, which was just a trike away from ours.

When we got to talk about you, I felt so dumb when i realized that she knew more things than I do. And for crying out loud, you did not even bother to tell me that you are having your thesis this term. That simple thing that you could have told me when we were textin each other. When we still do.

Granted that I did not bother to ask. But how am I suppose to know that there was anythin to ask?

I met her roommate, and I confirmed that you've been to their place. I kept on asking her coz I am like left in the middle of a puzzle. Nasabihan tuloy akong walang kwenta.

I never felt so stupid. Nakakainis na 'yung mga bagay na pwedeng sa akin itanong, sa iba ko pa nalalaman.

I am not asking you to keep a journal or a planner that I should read from time to time, but do I really have to be the last to know (Shit! Britney!--panggulo ng CNS)? Your so-called "BEST FRIEND?"

Dude, if this is really your idea of friendship, then I don't think it's the same as mine.

Kaya ngayon I won't start any conversation about you with our common friends. I won't text. I won't send you anythin. Until you do.

And I don't think I can still consider you my best friend. It is not only now that this happened.

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posted by letter shredder at 11:35 AM


Well, I still have enough time to watch movies. Last Wednesday, Vidal and I watched Home on the Range. Kami lang dalawa 'yung tao sa sinehan... Kaya pagpasok namin, tinanong ko si Vidal kung bakit kailangan pa n'yang ipa-reserve 'yung movie house para sa akin. Hehehe!

The flick was really for children. The humor was safe. The plot was not complicated. I cannot forget the scene where the three cows were walkin and Grace (the skinny one), was walkin ahead, singin (well, she says that's her idea of a perfect pitch). Two vultures were flyin in circles above her and Maggi (the fat cow) told the vultures that Grace wasn't dying. The vultures seemed puzzled, and as a promise Maggi volunteered to keep them posted. And one of the vultures yelled, "False alarm! False alarm," and they flew away.

Another movie I've watched this week is You Got Served. I think it qualifies to be a new instructional video for pep squads and those interested in streetdancing. The plot was very simple. It really focused on the dancing scenes. Pero astig talaga! I thought it was a film noir, coz almost all the protagonists were black. If one would include the issue of racism in criticizing the film. The conventions of having the whites as richer kids and them feeling superior over the blacks were present. I don't think it's just a matter of iconography that the antagonists had to be white.

Well, that's just my insight.

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

posted by letter shredder at 11:53 AM


I cannot find time to change my blog! And I hate it! how can i not give enought time to something i really give much importance (and respect?)?

Ang blog na lang ang kaulayaw ko sa sleepless nights, introspections, at kung anu-ano pang hindi ko masabi...

Nga pala, I would never want to watch Harry Potter with Julie, Cleng and Kte again... Sobrang ingay! Splunking nina Cleng at Julie. Si Kate, meron. So ginawa nilang porn movie 'yung Harry Potter. I've been dead serious at paying attention to the movie pero ang naririnig ko eh 'yung mga tawa nila.

Well, i need to find people who would watch several flicks with me. Too many good movies to watch in the mainstream. And I have a list of film fests to go to: French Film Festival, Cinemanila and the Pink Film Festival.

Cinemanila is supposed to be in August but Kate has informed me that it will be this month. And i wonder why. I know some of the people who aranged it are from the Film Institute and Meg promised to give me tickets... Greenbelt din 'yun!

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posted by letter shredder at 11:23 AM

Independence at 20 and the Ambassador's Mischief

Last Friday, June 11, Steph asked Cielo and me to visit their house in Hong Kong. She said we can go there anytime we like... basta may derbs....

When i went home to Cavite, the next day, I asked my parents permission, which is actually for the sake of telling them that I am going to Hong Kong sometime soon...

Unfortunately, they did not allow me! And it was actually Independence Day then! And for crying out loud, I'm already 20 years old! This is the first time I am proud to admit that I'm not a teenager anymore!

I told them I'll be the one to shoulder the expenses and I won't go there on a school day. My mom said they might reconsider if I were about to go with Tati or any of my high school friends whom they've met and known for a long time.

My father said he would allow me after graduation, which is actually by April(hopefully). But I told him that if he would allow me by then, he would be the one to shoulder the expenses.

I also told my mom that if they won't allow me, they should buy me a new PC!

Well,we plan to go during the sembreak, so naka-hold pa ang negotiation...

Now, how would i make them change their mind?

Btw, on-going ang peace talks sa condo... Peace-talks kasi walang nagsasalita about the problem...and I think I am caught in the middle! Ambassador of goodwill yata ang role ko.


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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

posted by letter shredder at 8:07 PM

Back to school!!!

school just started...21 units na naman ako!

well, after two days...may gwapo akong classmate sa socio 101. socio 132 (sociology of deviant behavior) is more on criminology...i think.

sayang, hindi si monsod ang lecturer sa econ... okay naman yung class ko about women's magazines...kaso when the prof asked kung anung magazines ang nababasa ko...guns & ammo, guitar one, T3, PC Games and those more on automibiles ang nasabi ko...coz i really think, so far, isa pa lang na cosmopolitan mag ang nabibili ko.

lalake nga yata ako...

and i think, nahumaling din ako sa magz on skateboarding nung second year high school...

i was just being honest... i've read several magz on current events and household designs coz my mom buy those.

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