What's your favorite disguise? [/meta]
posted by letter shredder @ 11:59 a.m. on 1/20/2006
"Great art is about conflict and pain and guilt and longing and love disguised as sex and sex disguised as love..."
-- Lester Bangs, Almost Famous
Thursday, September 23, 2004
May Internet connection na ang BNR!!!
Monday, September 20, 2004
I sent this letter just recently. And as i reread it,I just realized that while I was telling him things, the more I was telling them to myself.
it would really be too hard to explain, but i
think i owe you one.
think about the set-up, i'm not really sure if it
then, something came up then, and i really
felt bad and realized i have to retreat for a
moment. i have to have "real" friends...
I know i actually need more friends.
i'm also thankful for (sort of) knowing you,
kaya lang i know i have to stop if i can't
measure up to what you really want.
ahmmm... i just realized that we don't have
the same issues going on... and i have this
personal baggage that i can't really leave so
that i could take off from where i stopped. and
i can't sacrifice the friendship you have to
offer just because i'm being "stupid" at this
point of my life.
i just thought that i better end it soon, before
everything else goes wrong...
you can always send me messages here. i
just cut off the texting, coz i have to give up
something else, that unfortunately included
you. pero totoong nawala 'yung phone ko
kaya no one can reach me through that old
believe it or not, i'm happy you found a job.
enjoy it while it lasts, but do take care of your
health. i just hope you find your great love...
as for me, i haven't... but i'm stuck with an
excess baggage... pretty hard to give up...
I think I just committed something I shouldn't have.
A year ago, I was the one in his shoes...
Monday, September 13, 2004
I miss him...
it's has been so obvious that I'm not paying much attention to this blog. i have not changed the layout, and i have not posted anything though I'm sure my friends think i have to or i would have had.
well, i'm busy. but, i'm happy about it. i've been helping the Underground for the concert on Sept. 28. I'm in the food committee! *grin* If they only knew! hahaha!
i'm happy that i'm seeing my high school friends again. wow! renewing ties!
but... not with him. the last time we got to talk was during cleng's father's wake. yeah, meeting people for the wrong reasons.
i told myself that i won't worry too much. partly being "apathetic." for sometime i was happy about it. wala akong pakialam, wala ring problema.
but then, i know i miss him. we have not even communicated even through SMS.
the so called best of friends...
right now, i don't know if i should talk to him, like i always did.
i'm getting sick of it! pero... tangina! i can't deny the fact that i still care about him... we were like siblings then... and i wouldn't want to blame anyone for not keeping that friendship we have... or had...